Weekend Coffee Share: Of Cognac, Cardamom, and Bonsai


If we were having coffee, it would be from a moka pot with fresh cardamom and some cognac. I would pretend to ask how much cognac you wanted while pouring the amount that worked best with the flavor of the beans.

If we were having coffee, I would say that the move is coming faster than I thought. In a few months, I’ll be leaving Oregon for Georgia to start a new program at Emory. I would absently say that maybe I should change all my bios, but I’m not sure how to put it. And we would both know that that’s just a way to avoid the real preparation that needs to happen.

If we were having coffee, as the cognac kicks in, I would say how I’m worried about my vocation. I feel more confirmed that I should be an educator, that through deciding whether to continue with philosophy or business, that literature is my home. But I worry about the integrity of entering this system. How will it change me? I would say how I subbed in a study hall, seeing all these kids with different learning needs being forced to act as introverts who express themselves best verbally.

If we were having coffee, I would say that we should finish up with cigars. We could go outside on the back deck, even in the heat. The bonsai will keep us company. We could talk about how he’s (yes, we’re anthropomorphizing today) doing better. I had thought he was dead and was too afraid to cut a branch to check. I would say how I thought I was keeping the corpse of a tree on the porch because I was too afraid to admit it by throwing it out. But now he’s blooming, and the leaves seem larger than last year, as though he’s trying to make up for lost time.

17 Responses

  1. That’s quite a move…Portland to Georgia! Wow. I don’t envy you having to pack up and pull up stakes and move.

    I’m glad the bonsai is waking up. I’m sure he just wants to make sure he’s not left behind when you move!

  2. It sounds like we have a lot of the same going on right now! I’m moving from Kyoto to Vancouver next year after six years in Japan, and am going to be pursuing a Masters in Publishing, after being a teacher for all of my time here. Hopefully you’ll find more grounding in your decisions as the dust settles. 🙂

  3. OH!! I think that coffee and Cognac has gone to my head! I am sure your transfer to Georgia and you will sort out in your head what you really want to do. I am sorry I don’t smoke anything but do go ahead and smoke your cigar I like the smell! See you next week!! 🙂

  4. Maybe it’s just the cognac kicking in, but this coffee share is quite poetic. The awakening bonsai needs to find itself in a poem stat.
    I have some similar thoughts about education, but for different reasons. I have a son. I am an introvert that did pretty well in the US education system, but right now I am living in Poland and I see my son is more of a mover. He has to memorize some lines for a play they’re doing in kindergarten for the end of the year, and he moves and jumps around when he’s reciting them. He’s quite intelligent kinetically, I can see that. He learns differently from me for sure. I need to be still and quiet. Luckily, we’re sending him to a democratic school, where I hope his learning methods will be respected.

    • That sounds wonderful about the school. I’m an introvert too, so I’m perhaps a little scrupulous in making sure I’m coming from a place where I’m not teaching myself.

      Thank you for the kind words about the bonsai!

  5. That is a big move! My niece made the California to Georgia move a few years ago and she still sighs when the subject comes up. : ) She loves Atlanta, but misses the West Coast too. Thanks for coffee and cognac.

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